Written by Taylor Made Blogs (Mummy)
I was in two minds about writing this post as there are so many people who have shared their stories but I am just going to go for it!!! Having LT has been the best thing that I have ever done; she has brought so much happiness and love to our family and completes our little unit. Her smiling happy face lights up the room and every time she giggles I cannot help but giggle too.
However at times it is incredibly challenging and anybody that tells you different is, in my opinion, not being truthful. There have been times when I have felt totally out of my depth and like I am losing the plot. The first time I felt like that was a horrendous night when LT just would not settle and was awake pretty much every hour. It turned out that she was teething but at the time I remember thinking ‘what have I done’. Yes I did just say that. It quickly turned into an overwhelming feeling of guilt for thinking that and I was in tears. There I was trying to rock my baby to sleep in our room sobbing my heart out. I even woke Dave up with the noise I must have been making but I just could not hold it in.
I have never felt quite as awful and out of control but there have been times when I have honestly felt like I did not know what I was doing. When LT has not slept well and I have been pounding the pavements with tears rolling down my cheeks from sheer exhaustion; these have been the low points of our adventure together. This is making me feel very emotional but I think that it is important to be truthful and honest. Having a child is the best thing in the world but the hardest thing too. A lot of parents do not give a true account of what is involved in bringing up a baby, probably for this reason!
I do not want this to come across as a ‘feel sorry for me moment’ as this is not what this is about. Every parent’s experience is very personal to them and whether you chose to share it or not is up to you as a family. It is all an adventure and we learn along the way what works best for us, I suppose you could say that it is a case of trial and error with hopefully not too much error!! I think that you sometimes have to feel those low moments to make you take a step back and think, wow, this little person that you have made and grown is an absolute miracle and not take any of it for granted.
Everyone tells you how quickly they grow which I am beginning to realise is happening before my very eyes! So…if you have read this post and ever felt the same I hope that you realise as I have that it is o.k. and very normal and you are most definitely not a bad person for feeling like that. We have all been there. I promise that my next post will be more light hearted… until next time;
be excellent to each other.
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